Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Be Still and Write

Walasi-Yi. It's quiet here midweek, post Labor Day. Unlike my thoughts. They skitter, slide and bounce. A new direction has been presented and my brain is off and running. Yesterday was spent in research needed to determine what is possible. Online. Emails. Phone calls.

All that activity brought me back to what I already know: financially I am in a box with no wiggle room. My heart believes different and instructs my subconscious creator to make it happen. Then hurtles in to a tailspin, an emotional whirlwind of whys and why nots.

The poplars are turning yellow. Isolated leaves blown free by the capricious wind tumble to the ground where they will prepare the way for their brethren.

I close my eyes. The wind picks me up and carries me with it. Tenor chimes sing in time to my flight. Then I'm grounded once more as cars pull in to the parking lot and the footfalls of man approach.

So like life.

A fellow wanderer clicks pictures of the gorge. Another fills his water bottle.

The wind gathers in the treetops, its crescendo touching my soul. I think of August Rush who hears music in every sound. The leaves, the chimes, even the cars roaring by and the passenger doors slamming play a part in my mountain concerto.

Who does it call?

Or what?

I hear it shout, "Just be.

"Give your creator time to create."

"Be still and write."

And so I obey.

I am still.

I write.


Michelle Gregory said...

beautiful. that's one of my favorite movies.

Roland D. Yeomans said...

Another great movie is WHAT DREAMS MAY COME.

If you try to force reality to fit your heart, you will only bruise your spirit.

Look at your surroundings, your resources, your world and see if you can't plant your heart and dreams in what your see around you.

Your dream will find a way to bloom in concrete if you but have patience and determination.

Easy to write. So very, very hard to put into action. Always in your corner, Roland

Olivia J. Herrell, writing as O.J. Barré said...

Michelle, I finally saw it this past weekend and loved it.

Roland, as always, thank you my friend. I saw WDMC years ago. Maybe I'll have to rent it again.

Thanks, y'all, Olivia

Unknown said...

I know that no wiggle room feeling all to well and all I can do is give you a big virtual hug.

I've never heard of August Rush! I'll have to look for it.

Jules said...

This was a beautifully depressing post to me but then my head is still sore. :)

Maybe Kobico, you and me can do a big virtual group hug.

Wiggle? I can't even do that.

Still hoping to get to GA, I really would love a face to face.
Jules @ Trying To Get Over The Rainbow

Olivia J. Herrell, writing as O.J. Barré said...

Grrr. My computer decided to restart itself when I was almost done with this comment. Gremlin love?

Kobico, ahhh. Thanks, I needed that!

Jules, beautifully depressing. At least I evoked an emotion. ;) I hope your head is better soon.

Walasi-Yi actually calmed my unsettled mind. On the way home I visited Trahlyta and dropped a stone on her mound. I came back down from the mountain with the beginnings of a new resolve.

I am a want-what-I-want-and-want-it-NOW kinda gal. I've lived my life in fits and starts, running hither and thither at the mercy of some force that seems to find pleasure in watching me hop. Higher, higher, higher it roars.

This time I will jump, but I'm not 'doing' everything myself or making it all happen. If 'it' wants me to go it will work out the details and hand it to me in a pretty package.

In the meantime? I'm fine where I am. I have things to do, details to take care of, a book to finish writing. A soul to feed. A box to love.

When the time is right I'll go. But for now? I'm happy right where I'm planted.

Thank you for the hugs, Olivia
P.S. Michelle and I are talking about hosting a blog hop: "My name is _______ and I'm an HSP." Wanna play?

dolorah said...

Such lovely poetry Olivia. I love the imagry of being picked up by the wind.


Olivia J. Herrell, writing as O.J. Barré said...

Donna, thank you so much. I hope the wind lifts you and carries you today.



I didn't see the movie but this was really beautiful.
I don't get top the cinema much but I watch many movies on TV.

Take care.

Unknown said...

Ah, yeah. I need this. This comes at a good time for me. I just need to focus.


Olivia J. Herrell, writing as O.J. Barré said...

Yvonne, August Rush has been out for a while and is available on DVD. Probably be out on TV soon, too. It's a wonderful movie about the power of connecting with our senses (among other things).

Clarissa, I'm so glad it helped!


Erin Cole said...

Hi Olivia,

With three young children, I don't see many movies...well, not the ones I would pick, but I enjoyed reading about your take here on life, seasons, and writing. You have a solid voice!


Olivia J. Herrell, writing as O.J. Barré said...

Hi Erin, welcome, I'm so glad you could stop by, so nice to meet you. I don't see as many movies anymore and I mostly go for uplifting and funny these days. Many times these are animated so we probably see a lot of the same ones.

Thank you for your feedback on my voice. I'm drawn to musing so you'll see these type pieces peppered liberally throughout my blog. Please come back whenever you have time.


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